So I decided that once again, I'm going to start a blog with a new focus. My first blog was just for a college class because I had to do one. I never really used it. My second blog focused on my journey to be a healthier person. This blog, my third one, is going to be dedicated to my new adventure of being a mom, when I honestly never thought it was going to happen for us.
Some of you might already know a lot about me and my life and experiences. Others of you might be learning new things about me with each new blog. So I'm going to start this adventure from the beginning which I know will help some of you understand truly what a blessing this is for us.
About five years ago, Vince and I had been married four years, had purchased a house, and had not been successful in growing our family. So we decided that we were going to take a more active step in trying to have a child and started fertility treatments. After several months of treatments and procedures, my out of whack hormones, thousands of dollars, and a lot of tears and heartbreak, we weren't making any progress on our hopes of having a child together. We decided that we weren't going to do the fertility treatments any more. It was too hard on me physically, and us emotionally. I spent a lot of time being really sad about the hand that we had been dealt. We didn't stop trying; we just stopped trying to make it happen. I think, in time, we both started to accept that this wasn't going to happen for us. Thankfully, our love, trust, and relationship were strong enough to get us through this time together. We relied on each other and stopped talking to anyone else about this. I don't know if Vince felt it quite as strongly as I did, but a part of me ached for the loss of the chance to be a parent.
More recently, I actually commented about this in my blog about my journey to be a healthier person. Here's a quote from the post where I mentioned it, "I've struggled with several of the issues listed in the article to greater or
lesser extents: high cholesterol, borderline high blood pressure, snoring/sleep
apnea, arthritis in my knees, and infertility. Those last two are probably the
hardest to realize that I did to myself." I knew that my weight issues were a contributing factor in my inability to get pregnant, but I don't think I ever thought that was the only issue.
So moving on to April 2013, on the 23rd of that month, I went to my family doctor because I was pretty sure that I had a sinus infection and didn't want to let it get too bad. My doctor confirmed that I was right. As he was writing out a prescription for me, I sort of stammered about how I might, possibly, maybe...well, I was two weeks late, so.... My doctor told me that the meds he was giving me shouldn't be a problem and then showed how well he knows me:
Doctor: Have you taken a pregnancy test?
Me: No.
Doctor: Chicken?
Me: Umm...yeah.
Doctor: Do you want a test?
Me: Ummm...yeah, I do.
After the test and a short wait, the nurse took me to a room and said the doctor would be with me shortly. I waffled back and forth between whether this meant I was pregnant or whether this meant I wasn't pregnant, but something else might be wrong. He came in shortly and told me that I was pregnant. I'm pretty sure the blood must have drained from my face and I was speechless and the breath was knocked out of me. He asked me if I was okay and I smiled and told him I was fine. Then I left the doctor with my prescriptions and two hours to realize that this was real and to figure out how to tell Vince. I don't really remember much about those two hours. I know I got my meds and went home, but beyond that, it's kind of a blur.
When Vince got home, he asked how I was. I said, "I have a sinus infection...and...I'm pregnant." He wrapped me in a huge hug and told me how much he loved me as I'm sure he was trying to process the shock that I had been trying to process for two hours.
We haven't looked back since that day. Our joy and happiness has been indescribable. The day we found out we were pregnant has been the best day, followed by a close second, the day that we finally started telling people. I don't have the words to describe the joy that I felt on that day. Everyone has been so amazingly supportive and excited for us. I knew it would feel good to share the news I had to keep quiet for four weeks, but it was even better than I had imagined. The sheer joy I saw on faces, heard in voices, and read in messages touched me in ways that I can't even explain.
Now we are twelve weeks along and the joy and excitement haven't faded at all. Once again, everything I read says that I should blog about this adventure, so I'm taking that advice. I have enjoyed writing my blogs, and hopefully some of you enjoy reading them, so I'm off on a new adventure and will share it with you here.
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