30 Things My Kid Should Know About Me: Number 28

What’s your favorite quality in your spouse?

Started prior to your birth: This one is pretty easy. Your dad has many wonderful qualities, but the one that is my favorite is his never-ending faith in me. As you may or may not know by this point in your life, I have struggled with insecurity for a lot of my adult life. I worry that I'm not good enough or don't know enough or just don't have the ability to do some things. Your dad has always believed in me and supported me even when I didn't or couldn't. And it's not just because he loves me, he really, truly believes in me for me.

Continued after your birth: I started this one before you were born and I guess I just ran out of time and then was busy with you. Reading back over it now that you are three and I've been through my struggles with postpartum anxiety and had time to reflect back on it. I will say that my favorite quality of your dad is still his never-ending faith in me. Even when I struggled with whether I was a good mom or whether I was doing things "right" or not, your dad knew I could do it. He pushed me to believe in myself and cut myself some slack. Sometimes he was a little heavy handed, but his heart was always in the right place and he wanted, more than anything, for me to believe what he knew: that I was the right mom for you and that sometimes with kids, things don't go "right" and it's no one's fault.

Here's the best part of this for you: your dad will always have that same faith in you. He will believe in you even when you don't believe in yourself. He will just know that you are good enough. Sometimes you might get annoyed with this, but I promise you now, that it's going to be something you are so glad that you have. It's going to be something you treasure.

P.S. I'll always have faith in you too, but this post isn't supposed to be about me. I love you, my darling girl and am so glad you are here with us.